Law & Order: Special Victims Unit (TV Series)

Futility (2003)

Myndy Crist: Carrie Huitt

Quotes 

• Det. Olivia Benson : [after Carrie refuses to testify in court and Olivia tries to talk to her]  Could you tell me why you changed your mind?

  Carrie Huitt : You know why. I don't want to talk to him, I don't want to hear him. You know, I have to get on with my life. I can't keep going back to this.

  Det. Olivia Benson : Carrie, how are you going to get on with your life knowing that Gardner got away with it?

  Carrie Huitt : It's not my fault, it's not my responsibility.

  Bethany Taylor : That's right. You're only responsible for yourself.

  Det. Olivia Benson : [to Bethany]  Did you discuss some of the positive things that could come out of a victim testifying against her rapist?

  Bethany Taylor : [to Carrie]  It's often empowering. The attack was out of your control, but in court you have complete control.

  Det. Olivia Benson : And even though Gardner is doing the questioning, he is bound by the rules of the court. All that you're bound by is the truth.

  Carrie Huitt : I just want I just want to get over it. When am I going to get over it?

  Det. Olivia Benson : Carrie, I have never known a single victim who regretted testifying against her rapist, no matter how hard it was, but I have known plenty that wished that they had. And by then, it was too late.

• Det. Olivia Benson : [to Carrie]  You're not wearing your engagement ring.

  Carrie Huitt : Yeah, that was my decision. I didn't want Eric to have to wait around for me to get back to normal. I couldn't have sex without crying. I love him, but I'm never going to be back to normal.

  Det. Olivia Benson : Carrie, I really don't think that this is the right time to be making these kind of decisions.

  Carrie Huitt : When is the right time? You're all sitting around waiting for me to shake this off and get back to normal. You have no idea. I can't sleep more than I hate to be alone. But, God, I hate to be around people more. And I am so afraid to walk outside or be in a crowded place, because, you know, I might see him. And all I can think to myself is it would've been so much better if he'd just killed me. So, that's what I talked to Bethany about because she told me that I could say anything to her and no one would ever know.

  Det. Olivia Benson : Nothing that I do will ever change what happened to you. I can only try to prevent it from happening again. Except everything that I have done has failed. I'm not going to pretend that this is a good thing or that this is a fair thing, but I have to ask you for your help because you are our last chance.

• Carrie Huitt : [to Bethany]  I waived my rights.

  Bethany Taylor : And I wish she didn't make you do that. But it doesn't mean anything. I still won't talk.

  Carrie Huitt : It's my decision and it's already done. You said that this is about control, right? Taking it back. Well, I am. I do not want there to be any chance that this guy can get away, so please testify to the judge. It's okay. It's... it can't get any worse.