Law & Order: Special Victims Unit (TV Series)

Holden's Manifesto (2014)

John Karna: Holden March

Quotes 

• Holden March : Hi, Holden March here. Look at them. Look at all those beautiful girls. All of them out on dates, having fun, flirting, kissing. It's Saturday afternoon and everybody is out and about with their lovers, except for me. It is not fair. Why do these girls only go out with jerks, while I, despite having so much to offer, am alone?

• Holden March : [about his neighbors]  Listen to them, rutting like animals, taunting me with what I cannot have. All of you women who will not look at me or kiss me, giving yourselves to other men, giving sex to men who do not love you, who use your bodies. I would know how to take care of you, to worship you, but all of you beautiful girls, you throw yourselves at men who are mean and selfish. Sweating, grunting brutes. You reject me. A nice guy, smart, superb, clean. I dress well, I take care of myself. I would have taken care of you, been gentle, but those days are gone. You had your chance. You do not deserve me anymore. You do not deserve to live.

• Holden March : [to Rollins about Amaro]  Look at him. Helpless, useless. You think he's better than me.

  Amanda Rollins : I don't. He's not.

  Holden March : Yes, you do.

  Amanda Rollins : I'm not a kid. These young girls, they don't get it. They don't see. They don't understand how special you are.

  Holden March : Are you tricking me?

  Amanda Rollins : No. Thoughtful guys, polite, the kind that will hold the door open for you. You don't have to be macho. These girls think you do. Women don't. There are things I want to tell you. Adult things. Not in front of other people. Private things, you know, just... just for you. Okay? I see the potential in you, Holden. I see how powerful you are.

• Amanda Rollins : [to Holden]  I'll tell you the truth. Nick is the kind of boy that I used to like. Yeah, I fell for the quarterback, the guys with the big shoulders and the big smiles. They told me that I was special, but they just wanted to use me. You know what, Holden, and I'll tell you something. I went back my high school for a reunion, and everything is different. The star athletes, they're just fat and sweaty now. They're with big, ugly women that they don't care about. It's the intelligent guys, the smart guys they have... they have everything. I mean, they're rich, they've got beautiful wives. They're... they're guys like you. They were intelligent, sensitive, considerate.

  Holden March : I try to be.

  Amanda Rollins : I know. I know that. I can see that in you now. Now that I'm a woman. And I wish we weren't here right now. Yeah, I wish we'd met someplace else. I just don't want this to sound wrong, Holden, but I think you're superb. I really do.

• Holden March : All of you beautiful, blonde, unobtainable girls, I forgive you. If it were not for you, I would not be here on the edge of greatness. I could have spent my whole life in the shadows, but I choose instead to fight back, to make sure people remember me, because I know one thing: it is better to die in infamy than to live a life of obscurity.