Once Upon a Time (TV Series)

Only You (2016)

Lana Parrilla: Regina Mills

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• Regina Mills : I assume you have a map somewhere in this pigsty of yours.

  Emma Swan : In the glove box. By the way, it was your idea to go to Hardee's.

• Emma Swan : I'm sorry about earlier. I was so wrapped up worrying about how you'd react to Hook, I... wasn't there for you about Robin.

  Regina Mills : You want to know why I got so angry? Because you're right. The Evil Queen *is* inside me, always trying to get out.

  [scoffs] 

  Regina Mills : I can't expect you to get it.

  Emma Swan : Well, I fought the darkness. You know I do understand.

  Regina Mills : All due respect, but you don't. You went up to the precipice. But you got pulled back before it consumed you. I *was* consumed. And I have to live with that every day.

  Emma Swan : I can't imagine how that feels.

  Regina Mills : It's exhausting. I'm constantly at war with my instincts. Like with Hook. My first impulse... was to rip his throat out because it's not fair that he survives and Robin doesn't. But I didn't.

  [sighs] 

  Regina Mills : Because now I know that's wrong. Much as I want to give in to evil, I don't. So I do good... and hate every moment of it.

  Emma Swan : You hate doing good?

  Regina Mills : Yes. It's complicated. I know it's right, but it always leads to loss for me. Yet I keep doing it now and I keep suffering. But I know the Evil Queen can't return so... that's how it has to be. I'll never be at peace with myself.

  Emma Swan : That's not true. You fell in love with Robin and you were happy.

  Regina Mills : Yeah, and look what happened. I am what I am. I did what I did. Many years ago, I had a choice. Snow White told a secret. And I could have chosen to forgive her, instead... I did terrible things. Unspeakable things. That will always hang over me. I've tried to be the hero.

  [scoffs] 

  Emma Swan : And you have been.

  Regina Mills : Well, it doesn't matter. There's no redemption for me. There's only suffering. Because now I have a curse. The curse of knowing the difference between good and evil. And I'm caught between them. If I revert, I lose everyone I love. Henry, my friends, everyone. And if I go forward trying to be good, I have to live with my past darkness and all its well-deserved consequences.

  Emma Swan : I don't believe that. I believe in you.

  Regina Mills : That's because, you are good. But for me, it's a simple choice really. I'd rather suffer, than see that pain on the people I care about. This is my fate. I'm trapped.